i can´t shake the feeling that a part of me still loves him.

I  don´t want to feel this way, i just do. I want to hate him, and a part of me realie does... That part is just not big enough.

He is realie anoying, and he tries to irritate me any way he can. I want to forgive him for everything he has done to me, but I just can´t. He broke my  heart into a million peacec. And I am afraid that if I forgive him he will hurt me all over again. I just can´t handle it.